Being Thin???

When people notice that you have lost weight, the reaction is with happiness and joy. When you gain weight and people notice, they react with disappointment and disgust. Why are people reacting at all? Well, because what social media and society tells us is acceptable.

Let me tell you a tale.

I have anxiety. I think that I have mentioned it before. If not, well, I have anxiety. Its not the run of the mill anxiety, its the kind where my doctor has gotten involved because I have reached out for help. It can be the all consuming dreadful anxiety. But, over the years and doing research and learning more about who I am and what sets my anxiety off, I have been able to get it under control. To an extent.

When my life becomes very crazy and the anxiety amps up, I tend to just not eat. Some people eat, I am a non eater.

When my daughter went to school last year, I decided to take a part time job for 20 hours a week to give me something to do. Well naturally because I was working, I was snacking less and having lighter meals and lost a bit of weight. Nothing to fret over, just my pants were a bit lose. But people noticed. They would say things like, “You lost weight, good for you.” Well, it wasn’t like I was doing it on purpose. But it made me wonder, were they grossed out by me before? I had some curves but its not like I was grotesque.

After the pandemic hit, work was shut down for two months. I started eating again, and for a while it made me ill. Like every time I ate food to that fullness threshold, I felt sick. My body just wasn’t used to eating food, like real meals. The two months that we spent at home, I did eat more but smaller portions and my weight came back a smidge, but whose didn’t? Not like I was worried about it.

When the lockdown was over, and I went back to work, things escalated. I found myself not eating all day because my anxiety was through the roof. It was nothing but chaos and panic, rushing and running all day. I felt like there was too much pressure on me, on the group as a whole. I was given duties that I felt that were too much responsibility. I started seeing passive aggressive behavior coming at me (and someone with PTSD issues, this is not good) and I started to shut down. There were times that I was headed off to eat something but was stopped because someone told me I had to do something before I could eat. So I just didn’t. My weight was dropping and dropping and dropping. Just putting food in my mouth made me sick. Finally I had had enough. I decided to put my two weeks notice in.

I haven’t worked in almost 4 months. I haven’t gained all of the weight back but at least a good ten pounds. It took me at least two months to get my body to regulate to eating food again. Now that I am home with my daughter doing homeschool, we make time for meals and snacks. We eat when we are hungry. Lunch and breakfast are a priority every day, even if it is something light.

You may be wondering what the hell is the point. My point is that society comes up with these standards about how you are supposed to look and how much you should weigh. But at what expense? Mine was making me spiral down a horrible tunnel of anxiety and panic all for a job that I was just doing to kill time. Granted I liked the way I looked, and I liked the compliments and how clothes looked on me, but was that enough to keep spiraling down a dark path? No, not for me. But for some people it is.

People may have weight fluctuations for positive or negative reasons. Like me, its negative, its my anxiety. I don’t want the compliments of how my body looks because I have a mental health issue that is shutting me off of food. Its not a good compliment because of the reason behind it. SO, just don’t comment on anyone’s weight for any reason, ever. Weather they have lost a bunch or gained a bunch, just don’t say anything because you may be bringing up demons that that person could be in the trenches fighting. Instead, tell them how you like their eye shadow or ask them about a new book they have read. There is more to a person than their size and weight.

The Garden Diaries

How many of you had a garden this year?  First year?  Twentieth year?  I have a small raised bed garden and it puts out a lot of amazing produce.  It is my 3rd year, and I feel confident with my growing abilities.  So much so that my husband thinks that we should expand it for next year.  (Not sure how I feel about that.)

So there have been things that I have done the last couple years that have helped me learn what I am doing with all the produce I grow as well as where I want it to take me in the future.

I love the tomatoes I grow.  I have experimented with tomatoes, and I have learned that Sweet 100s and Purple Cherokees grow amazingly, and I get an abundance of them.  But that is a problem.  I can’t eat them fast enough or give them away fast enough.  So, I think the best thing to do for the next growing season is to grow the types that are best for canning.  I have never canned but have watched videos and read article on how to can.  I think the best way to preserve my awesome tomatoes is canning them mainly into pasta sauce.  Maybe soup.  I may not get a lot, but I can also compensate with getting extra from the farmers market if I need to.  I am thinking next year I am going to go with a Roma tomato or something similar and then the sweet 100s I will make into pizza sauce because its delicious.

I need to calm down on the zucchini.  This year I planted 4 plants and I have 13 bags of frozen zucchini in the freezer.  Now I am not crying about it because I see lots of muffins in the winter, but it is a bit overwhelming.  In 2021, I think I will just do 2 plants and that should be plenty.

This year was the first year that I planted lettuce.  I also planted some collards.  Man oh man, it was amazing!!!!  I loved it.  I loved being able go out and get lettuce for salads or BLTs.  I had Buttercrunch lettuce and another, but the name evades me.  My collards were excellent too.  Since I had never grown lettuce before, I didn’t plant a lot but 2021 will be the year of the lettuce.  I want more of it in my life because it was so great.

I did not plant squash this year and I regret it.  My first year I planted 2 buttnernut squash plants and it gave me 7 large squash.  It got me through half of the winter.  Last year everyone’s gardens sucked because of the rain and we all ended up with blight covered plants, thus I yielded 2 squash.  This year, I didn’t even plant any but got one by accident because it was labeled a cucumber but obviously was not.  Oye!  So, this upcoming year I plan on doing a butternut and spaghetti squash and we will call it good.

Radishes.  I can grow them but they are puny.  (Hold on to this thought.)

Cucumbers…cucumbers are erratic.  Sometimes they produce like wild and others not so much.  I do know that I like the small pickle cucumbers more than the standard cucumbers.  I usually plant 2 or three and this next year will be about the same.

On a side, I have also had an issues with critters this year that I have never had an issue with before.  For the most part my garden is fenced in so most critters can’t get in.  I suspect some of them with their little “hands” somehow make it in as I have found some half eaten tomatoes outside.

There are a few plants in the hot seat.  Eggplant is on the list.  Spinach.  Radishes. Potatoes. Onions and Garlic.  I say these because my husband has come up with a thought about expanding the garden and making another bed for some of these plants so we can grow more of our own food.  Now I have never grown any of these(except radishes and they seem to be tiny) so I am not sure how well it would work out for me, but I would be willing to give it a go.  No harm in trying.  Also, we have been getting our meat from a nearby farm and I am hoping that they could also supply me with some manure that I can turn into the soil before the freeze and in the spring.  I feel like some of my plants are struggling with success because the soil needs some tending to.  Which is all par for the course.

So there is the garden rundown of 2020. Hoping the garden of 2021 is epic and provides just as well, if not better, than this year.

 

The Virtual Tidal Wave

This is the school year of all school years.  I am exhausted and we have not even started school.  Well we have but not really.  Confused?  Me too.

Our school district in Michigan had us set to begin on August 25th.  The district plans were to allow students and parents to decide if they wanted virtual school or F2F.  My family chose virtual as I am a certified teacher and have actually taught in the school district that my daughter attends.  We did not start school on the 25th because we didn’t have computers or teachers.  Now, as of today, we have a teacher (thankfully it is the same teacher that she had last year so the relationship is already there) and a computer, but we still have no classwork.

Apparently, the program that we are supposed to be using has become so overloaded that it is slow and is taking more time to import all of the student data in it to begin.  We were supposed to have logins for our classes today, which now they say will be Friday, and I think it will be next Tuesday.

I was also surprised to find out that our district has 41% of students doing virtual classes and some nearby districts, it is only 14%.  I wonder why there is such a large discrepancy?

I am not in a panic for my daughter to start because there are things that we can do at home or outside to bring the learning to her.  We work on telling time and reading.  We talk about plants and how they grow.  We do a little math while baking something.  There are always things that can be done that can allow the connections and build the knowledge.

All of this has been a huge learning curve.  Not only for teachers but for parents, grandparents, kids, bus drivers and more.  There are things that I am pleased about and some things not so much.  But this is the first time that virtual learning on such a massive scale has ever happened.

I wonder what it would look like if this was happening and there was no internet to do virtual school.  How would learning be handled?  What would be happening in the schools?  How would parents handle it?

Hmmm…

Well, Aren’t We Entitled

I was scrolling through the news, and I know it is something that I shouldn’t be doing but, ya know, you have to stay informed.  I came across an article on CNN explaining how there was a school in Indiana where parents KNOWINGLY sent their child to school with a pending Covid-19 test.  And guess what?  It came back positive!!!

I prayed a lot, talked to myself, wrote in my journal…you name it, I did it to figure out what to do with my daughter for this school year.  She loves her school, her teachers and her friends.  I am well acquainted with the school because I had taught in the district in the past.  I wanted her to go back to school. But I was extremely hesitant to say the least.

Our district released a plan that is offering face-to-face (F2F) school and virtual.  I have decided to take the virtual option.

Now here is the thing.

There are all different kinds of families with all different circumstances.  And they will have to choose the option that is best suited for them.  You do you. I get it.

What I am not okay with is this exorbitant level of entitlement.  It makes me gag quite frankly.

What in the name of _____ would make you think (as a parent) that it would be a good idea to send the kid to school with a pending Covid test?  Your entitlement?  Your need for wanting your individualism more than what is good for the whole?  Your a psycho?

This goes back to why I cannot send my daughter to school in good conscience.  I have no control over what other parents do.

Parents send kids to school sick all the time.  What is going to make this pandemic situation any different?  Just a roll of the dice on whether that cough Bobby has had for a week is Covid or a regular cold?  Just to see what happens.  Nah.

But this time its different.  Sending a child to school ill this time around could be potentially lethal not only for the peers but for those who staff the school.  If a teacher gets Covid, how is he/she going to get a sub?  Subs are hard to come by as it is.

I cannot send my daughter to school knowing that she could carry this illness to others.  I cannot send her knowing that there are parents out there that wont keep their sick kids home.  I cannot send my daughter because the school may get lax in their sanitation protocols and the cleanliness wont be effective in preventing the spread.  Kids wont keep masks on.  Kids will be too distracted.  Teachers will be overwhelmed.  Social distancing wont be maintained.

I cannot control what others do.  But I can control what goes on in my home.  Because I am looking out for the good of the whole.  Not just my family but other families, teachers and students.  I am making my choice for others too.  Because it seems to be the best thing to do.

Whatever you choose to do as a family, however your kids go back to school, make sure that you as a parent have a plan.  Have a plan how to handle illness, extra curricular activities, play dates (if you allow it).  Because of all these decision have an impact on the whole, not just you. And if we ever plan to get the heck out of this, we need to start looking at it as a whole and not just you vs me.

 

 

 

 

You Can Do It

Masks.  Weird right?  No one thought in a million years that masks would become so, popular.

According to a revised page of the CDC website (May 23, 2020) it states that people should be wearing masks.  Not only to possibly protect yourself, but it can help protect others as well.  Is it a guarantee? No.  But can it help?  Yes.  Along with making sure to keep 6 feet of social distance in place as well as making sure to wash your hands (remember to sing happy birthday twice) can help keep many people healthy.

Now, with all of that being said, why are people not wearing them?

Let me start with my personal details.  I have family that is not in the best of health, and they depend on me to make sure that they have what they need.  I have been staying away from people as much as humanly possible as well as avoiding stores when necessary.  I try to use online shopping and enter stores at non-peak hours where there are fewer people in the stores.  I wash my hands well, I ALWAYS wear a mask, and disinfect all commonly touched surfaces.

Many times as I am in a store, I see not only the patrons but the staff not wearing masks.  Pardon?

Why is this so difficult?  Because people feel entitled that they don’t have to do something with their body that they don’t want to.  Human body autonomy.

It is a mask.  Made of either lightweight paper mesh or maybe cotton or nylon.  Might be held on by your ears or tied behind your head.  Not always stylish but you can get them made by awesome people on Etsy to make sure it matches your outfit that day.  Sometimes they fog up your glasses, if you wear glasses.  Sometimes they make you sweat a bit, maybe give you a zit or two.  Maybe it makes you gag a bit because you realize you need to brush your teeth better.  Not perfectly pleasant but not going to kill you.

Now recently, I have been getting dirty looks from people.  Not sure why.  I have on a mask and they don’t.  Shouldn’t I be giving them they stink eye?  Now I know for a fact that if I were to go out into public, to a store, movies, amusement park and didn’t have a bra on, I would be getting a TON of looks.  Many of them along the lines of “Why doesn’t she have a bra on?  That’s not cool!!!”  Yes!  My point exactly.  I don’t like wearing a bra.  It pinches and hurts my neck, in the summer I get sweaty and sometimes I get heat rashes.  Sometimes it is itchy because the fabric isn’t wonderful.  But you know what?  I make do. Just like a mask.  It is not always wonderful or super pleasant, but I think that you could make do for the short time it takes you to go into the store or pharmacy.

The one argument that takes the cake is people saying that wearing a mask is against their constitutional rights.  Ok, lets back up a bit.  No one is asking you to put poison in your body without consent or removing part of your brain for scientific study…it’s a mask.  I get constitutional rights- until your right is putting someone else in harm’s way.  By not wearing a mask you could be putting yourself or someone else in jeopardy by spreading germs.  A person that may be diabetic or have asthma or high blood pressure.  Someone that may be more susceptible from having severe issues if they were to contract Covid-19.  That is not fair to them.  Be kind.  Do that one great, kind deed for the day and wear your mask.  I woke up this morning and put my bra on.  Trust me, you can do it.

I am sure that there are 7,651 reasons that people come up with as to why they don’t want to wear a mask.  (That is another blog post coming soon.) Honestly, unless you have a severe, potentially life threatening issue that prevents you from wearing a mask, I think they should be worn.  There is no harm to wear one.  Find one that you like and go for it.  Trust me, there are people out there cheering you on for putting your mask on today.  Just like I cheer for all the ladies that put on a bra this morning.

 

 

To School or Not?

The last eight weeks in quarantine have been magical and disastrous all at the same time.  It has been really hard.  The emotions are high and all over the place.  There are so many options and none at all.  There has been all the time in the world and not enough.  So many dishes to do and the never ending laundry.  As well as the end of school and the beginning of virtual classes.

I think for parents, working or not, the dismissal of school was a difficult thing to deal with.  No one had ever been through this type of thing before.  A pandemic, what is that?  Everyone to do virtual learning?  Pssshhhhhh…

My daughter took it pretty hard when she realized that she couldn’t go back to school.  Initially she thought of it similar to Christmas break.  But then the governor came on the media and said that she was closing the schools for the remainder of the year.  That is heart breaking to a child who is so attached to the routine and her teachers, all of her wonderful friends.  Her school district has been amazing about making the transition to online teaching, with Zoom meetings and activities that the students can do at home.  They have worked around the technology and the internet issues along with making sure that kids still have access to meals.  They really have done an excellent job under the circumstances.  I applaud them.

My question is what now?

We all know that schools are giant germ factories.  Between the colds, stomach bugs, flu, hand foot and mouth, head lice, (the list keeps going) it is a nightmare trying to get families through those months where kids spend more time inside transferring germs than they do outside playing.  It seems like as soon as a kid gets over one illness, they are getting something else.  And the poor teachers getting sick right along with them.  I always feel the struggle more because my daughter has virus induced asthma.  She gets sick, her asthma can run wild.  Not cool.  I also know littles that have juvenile diabetes, heart issues, or just super weak immune systems.  These sick months the kids encounter are extra hard for them and can lead to devastating consequences if the illness gets out of control.

Here is my problem…do I allow my daughter to go back to school if it reopens or keep her home and home school her?  I have asked teachers that I know along with my daughter’s teacher what they have heard about next year.  I get conflicting stories; some say there will be regular school (no changes) then others say that there may be a hybrid model where only half the kids go at a time and there are virtual classes for the others.

I think that if the school has any common sense, they will have a plan in place as soon as possible knowing that if there is a change to the schedule, parents need to make accommodations.  But that is not the only issue.  These are the smoking guns for me:

1-the cleaning of the school

2-parents that give no shits and send their kids to school sick anyway

1-The cleaning of the school is huge for me because I know they do not clean it very well.  How do I know this?  I worked there.  Yes, I worked in this school district for a few years and the same custodial staff that was there then is there now, and most of them do not clean well at all.  The custodial staff only tidy up common areas; they don’t sanitize anything except lunch tables and bathrooms.  But most times the bathrooms will be out of TP and hand soap so I don’t know what help that is.  Also, they do not clean/sanitize tables, chairs, or desks in the classrooms themselves, the teachers have to do that on their own.  Like they don’t have enough on their plate as it is.  I have never seen any of them clean a door knob or drawer handle.  I just don’t think with the limited staff they have they will not be able to adequately SANITIZE all the things necessary.

Also, just a little tid bit to this, my daughter is not allowed to wash her hands at the necessary times.  The only time she can wash her hands is if she uses the bathroom, well if there is soap. They do not allow her to wash her hands before she eats (breakfast and lunch), after she eats, or after recess.  She is only allowed hand sanitizer.  Now I know hand sanitizer is helpful in those situations when you are in a bind and don’t have access to wash your hands, but guess what, they have those things at school.  She should be able to wash her little fingers before she eats. Aaannnnddd, I have worked with my daughter for years on washing hands and how to properly do it.  She knows what to do and does it well, so I would like her to use soap and water. Ya feel me?

2-I have watched this time and time again where parents send their kids to school sick just to be called by the office 30 minutes later telling the parent to come get their kids.  Or a parent that was told to come get their sick child from school and they don’t show up for 2 hours.  Um, no.  Sorry.  School is not your babysitter, no matter how much you think it is.  School is not your daycare provider.  If your kid is sick and is contagious, they need to stay home.  Most schools, especially elementary schools have sick policies that parents should follow.  Now do some parents let their kids go to school sick and have no clue, sure.  It happens.  But as an educator, I have watched so many people send kids to school with them coughing all over the place and snot running down their face only to get multiple other kids (and families) sick.  Not cool.  So I am sure a kid that has COVID-19 symptoms will just be sent to school to give it to other kids because their parents found it to inconvenient to keep them home.

I so badly want my daughter to have her school experiences and see her friends, but I want it done SMART.  I want the school to follow through, and I don’t have enough faith in them that rules will be followed and proper sanitation will take place.  I want parents to be responsible and accountable for making sure that they are also following policies and procedures keeping their children home when sick.  Unfortunately, I just don’t know in a building with hundreds of kids, this is even possible.

I think that it comes down to every family doing what works best for them.  Whether it is regular school or switching to all online classes or home-school, you have to do what is right. You do you.  You have to have true peace of mind that you are making the right choice.  No parent should feel bad for making that choice when they feel it was the best.  And I am ok with their choice and respect that.  I just hope that they will respect mine.

It’s Scary Here

So I love all the talk of the spooky, whether it is ghost stories or aliens. Love it all. One of my favorite podcasts that I listen to weekly is the Scared to Death show with comedian Dan Cummins and his fabulous and funny wife, Lynze. I have not been able to listen to the new episode from this week but it got me thinking, maybe I should share my experiences with the spooky things and see if any of you have tales to share in return. So, here we go!

I bought a farm house in Michigan in 2010. The house was modest on 2 acres. It was build in 1899 and was at one point farm laborer housing for an apple orchard that was in the area. The man that I purchased the home from had given me all the tax records dating back to the early 1940s. So much history, so interesting.

And most of my experiences in the home were interesting too. My very first experience I had was a few weeks after we moved in. I was doing more organizing and cleaning in the downstairs living room which had a huge picture window facing east toward my driveway and barn. As I am standing in the middle of the living room facing my tv that was off, I see the reflection of a child, maybe 10 years old run past my window. I thought to myself, why is that kid in my yard? So I run to my door getting ready to yell at the kid, and there was no one there.

Second experience was that summer. I had gotten up in the night to go to the bathroom, and as I walked past the guest room, I could see a woman wearing all white standing in my driveway. And it appeared as though she were dancing. I went to the bathroom quickly, got back in bed, and pulled the covers over my head.

It was an old house. Things would bang or ping all the time. But I learned those noises and noises that were not normal. For instance one evening I was sitting downstairs, finishing a tv show so I could head to bed. I lived alone, and no one was over visiting. All of a sudden, from upstairs, I hear a crash. Like something heavy fell on the floor, most likely in the bathroom since it was one area not carpeted. I told myself, it must have been one of my two cats, they knocked something down. But then I look over on the couch and both of the cats were fast asleep next to me. So I go upstairs and check every room, only to find nothing out of place. Nothing fell down. Nothing at all.

A few months later I was down in the basement doing laundry. Hated that basement. It was super creepy. But as I was getting one load out of the washer and dryer, I heard what sounded like someone running from one end of my house to the other. Loud heavy running, maybe that of an older child. What the hell was going on? Did someone break into my house in the middle of the day? So I drop the clothes and run upstairs only to find…no one. All of the doors were locked and everything was where it needed to be.

Lastly, I was in bed one night having a hard time sleeping. Tossing and turning. Could not get comfortable. As I am laying there, I feel the blankets slowly being pulled straight down off of me, as though someone was standing at the end of the bed pulling them. I gave a hearty pull of the blankets back toward me and it stopped.

I finally decided that I was going to put my house up for sale, and I decided to do some digging on the property and who lived there. With the use of the internet and my local library I was able to piece together a pretty amazing story. So a family bought the house in the 1940s after the man of the house returned from war. They had two children. Apparently one of the children was killed just down the road from the house in a sledding accident in the 1950s. The family remained in the home until the mid 1980s when the lady of the house passed away in her nineties. That is when the house was put up for sale.

Makes me wonder, was that the lady and child I saw? Is the child the one running through the house, knocking things down?

I have since moved into a new house, which compared to my old home seems quiet. But I do happen to have the rare oddities that happen, and some that my young daughter notices. Maybe I have a wild imagination, maybe I have some medium abilities, maybe I am just plain crazy. Or maybe what I saw is real.

Maybe…

Do you have any stories to tell? I would love to hear!

Oh, and if you get a chance, go check out the podcast! Its fantastic!

Food

Sometimes it is really hard for me to find food that I can eat. I have been following a completely gluten free diet for more than 2 years now and strictly limit how I consume dairy and eggs. For health reasons that are beyond my understanding, I avoid these foods because the havoc that happens to my body after eating these items are horrible. With that being said, it can be rather difficult to find food that I like and that tastes great.

Now I have my staples that I eat that get me through, but sometimes I long for food of my past. Like doughnuts. Or cinnamon rolls. It can be challenging. So there are times where I go to the best place-Pinterest. Sometimes I need to find something new to eat and it is my go to. Now, I am sure many of you hop on there, find something you like and make it only to find that the recipe was completely messed up. Been there. Too many times. So I thought that I would periodically share some of my fav recipes from Pinterest that are legit and work well. Along with sharing any modifications to them.

Original link: https://pin.it/sqlvisxfk46jjw

I came across this recipe a while ago from kirbiecravings.com and it is so amazing. I have a hard time finding gluten free cookie recipes that don’t call for a bazillion eggs. This recipe only calls for one egg. I can handle that as long as I don’t eat the whole batch. And they are naturally gluten free since there is no flour in them and they take care of a sweet tooth. Now my husband likes to bake more than I do, so I let him try these out and they are amazing. He made them once with almond butter and once with peanut butter; both were very good. But I did find that peanut butter was a bit too sweet. And you could use any butter you wanted to and they would be great. We also did notice that the description for the size of the cookies yielded huge cookies so the second time around we made them smaller. They were just the right size.

Ingredients to make the cookies are:

1 egg

1 cup almond butter (or what ever you like)

1tsp baking soda

1 cup coconut sugar

3/4 cup chocolate chips

*mix cookie dough thoroughly

Preheat oven to 350. Please remember ovens will cook differently based on elevation where you live. Line baking sheet with parchment paper. Place 1 tablespoon sized balls of dough on the lined baking sheet. Place cookies in oven and cook for 18-20 minutes. The recipe says to cook for 10 minutes but the cookies where no where done at that time. We also noticed that when the cookies were just done, they started to collapse a bit in the oven. Take them out. These cookies can be a little over done because they will have more chew to them the next day. Also it is so so so important to leave them on the baking sheet to completely cool to room temperature.

These cookies are easy and so tasty. Next time that sweet tooth strikes, give these a try.

Who Dis

Honestly, I have no idea. I am a person who had one life then decided to have a baby. Now I am that person living with a child but really don’t have a clue who I am. What do I even like anymore? What makes me tick? What makes me happy? I am having to relearn all of this. I am sure every mom has gone through this to some extent, but it’s like I had amnesia and now have to relearn who I am all over again.

So with that, I do remember my name. I am Heather. I live in Michigan. I am married and have a 6 year old daughter. Beyond that I am trying to figure it out. Sometimes I think I know, sometimes not so much. But what I do know is life is short, and I want to do as much as I can in my limited time. So I am gonna do what I like. And I am going to do things and fail. I am going to succeed. And laugh so hard I pee my pants.

I plan on sharing a little of everything. This blog is not a one size fits all. Not just fashion or my kid. Not just food recipes or new restaurants. I want it to be all the things because life is all the things. Life is the hectic, the good and bad, with some ugly. Sometimes it’s sad or upsetting. And sometimes it’s a blast. I want to share it all.

So stay tuned. We have a wild ride ahead.